Still single??

Everyone is in a rush to get married and settle down.. i wonder why?? Perhaps they're just sick of fooling around i guess.. Hmm.. however different people have different perceptions towards their decision of settling down and building their own family and a brand new life, destiny and journey.. actually it goes the same for me.. It's obvious that i am not in the right position to settle down and get married because everything about myself is not stable ye and that is the reason why i said no to my x bf's marriage proposal.. Otherwise i will be the one who get married this year..

I've received a good news today that my best high school mate is getting married.. Quite shocking as i never expect this smart arse gonna settle down this early but nevertheless, i am really happy for her as she had been hooked up with this Johorian guy for many years and they already had stable career, stable income and this is considered the right time for both of them to settle down.. Congrats girl.. She is the 2nd in the group to get married this year.. Hmm geezz.. looks likely i will be the last one as i am the only holding the singlehood status in the group at the moment..


Ever since i broke up with my x bf, everyone liked to bomb me with the same questions again and again such as..

So.. what's new??

Seeing anyone already??

Found new "Friend" already??

Haha.. the moment when i answered;

"No.. not yet..!!"

"No luck.. No one wants me!!!"

and everyone will eventually gave the same and standard answer.. "Beverley Ong Hui Yee.. Don't be so picky la will you".. Hey come on.. i am not picky.. seriously.. no one pick me up.. I am waiting for my handsome prince charming to pick me up.. keke.. :) Not even a single chance for me to be picky now..

I AM NOT PICKY but frankly speaking.. sometimes.. i think i am quite picky.. *evil grinz*

Hmm not that i want to be picky but sometimes when it comes to accepting and liking someone, its the chemistry and feelings that we are talking about.. it's not like picking up something from the departmental store or groceries store because this involves with feelings (emotional), trust, faith and time.. If i really do not have feelings towards a particular guy.. i will just tell him straight away without even wanting to waste his time and also my time.. I do not like to play and fool around with people's feelings by playing loadsa mind games which really turns me off at most time because it's really waste of time..I will not even try to accept him since i knew he is not the right one for me, because it's really waste of time.. Maybe that is the reason why i am still single up to today although my ex got married already last week.. At the same time i do think single life is not that bad afterall

Although....

i missed having a companionship in my life,

i missed having someone by my side most of the time,

i missed the moment being pampered like a princess,

i missed the cuddling moment,

i missed the snuggle-snuggle under the blanket moment,

i missed all the warm huggles that i used to get everyday,

i missed my "must have forehead kiss" before i sleep,

i missed all the warm kisses

i missed the moment when i drive him up the wall with my cheekiness until he went speechless and doesnt know what to say.. =)

but

hey..

life goes on right..???

Single life aint that bad either.. I still have to continue my journey even with or without a partner by my side.. I am used of being independent rather than being dependent on others because it had always been my style to do everything on my own without giving the trouble to others to help me.. Well although its quite hard to tune back to single life after 4 years plus almost to 5 years.. i never stop trying.. Never look to the back.. no matter how much i missed his presense..

Thinking of the happy moments most of the time, thinking of my wonderful friends who cheered up my days each time when the little chilli padi is sad and depressed.. i will be happily and smiling all the way.. Some of you may be far away, but i seriously appreciate all the comfort long distance and expensive phone calls from you guys (you know who you are), the funny msn chat that intend me laughed out loud like hell each time when i am upset and disappointed and of course all the never ending sweet smses from you guys.. Sometimes i felt lucky to be pampered by you guys..*mwacks-mwacks* Luv u peeps loads and loads..

I've always tried avoid from letting you guys find out that i am upset or had a bad day/moment because i know once you guys knew about it.. you guys will be worrying about me.. checking me out every now and then asking if i am ok or not.. if i need people to talk to.. and that is the reason why sometimes i choose not to say anything but keep quiet about the whole thing.. Not that i did it on purpose but i just doesnt want to add any burden to those who had been loaded with tons of stress at work place.. My prob is just a small matter compared to the tons of stress at work place that you guys are dealing with.. =)

No worries people.. dun worry too much about this little chilli padi alright??.. like everyone used to said.. Beverley is a little chilli padi she is very "Panas" (hot)/ she is the devil..She will survive everywhere she goes to.. without worries.. =)

Cheerios

X@Beverley@x