Life

Lately, i've discovered the melancholiness side of me. What has gotten into me i wondered. Age is catching up i suppose, despite of how my friends claimned that i am still very young and assumed i've been taking things too seriously and i'm thinking too BLOODY much and as the result of that, i've discovered the melancholiness side of me. This isn't me, i am not even like this previously but i suppose people do change and they can either choose to remain the same or to change and transform into different and better human being sustaining the life/objectives and goals that they wanted. People around me starts to get really worried about me because they are now seeing the different side of me that they hardly get to see the cheeky, playful and mischevious side of me anymore and they wondered why. WHY? I have no answer to that question because i seriously have no idea why i've been acting this way.

And yes i am indeed taking things too seriously and been thinking too much lately because as the moment when i grew older there's tend to be more things to think of and obstacles that occured into the journey and ride of my life. Am i doing the right thing now?Am i a good decision maker or i am just being very indecisive and fickeled minded like how i used to be? Am i able to sustain the goal, objectives and the life that i wanted all this while? These questions keeps ringing in my fickeled minded mind for weeks. Gosh, spare me please spare me from all this making life decision questions. I am not ready for all this yet because i seriously am not too sure what i want and where do i want to go.

Few days back, i had a serious conversation with a friend of mine. Normally we only had bullshit, crapless, senseless talk but today, we had finally want to admit that we're too old for those senseless talk and lets have a serious conversation about life, journey, goals, dream, love, obstacles and future. My friend sensed that something is just not right about me and that is the reason why he called and trying to catch things up with me just incase he missed anything about me out. Nothing much to be precise it is just mood swing and feeling melancholy i said as it's freaking me out when i realised time flies.. VERY FAST and looking back at my achievement in life, what's actually left of me in a good way or a bad way? He reckoned i am thinking too much and i should stop pressurizing myself for no reason. He claimend that i am still young, there's still along path for me to venture and explore through, there's still many types of people i haven't encountered with and i haven't even start seeing the real world thoroughly yet and what is there to be worried of he asked me. "Life is short my dear girl, so enjoy the moment you have, appreciate what you have and appreciate what surrounds you"

Life can be bitchy sometimes, human beings tend to want the things that they can't get (just like myself). Without trying we will never know what is the outcome will eventually turn out to be, maybe its what we always wanted or maybe it is not but at least we've tried really hard to get the answer and the satisfaction from trying couldn't even be elaborated with words because only we understand what we want and not others. FIGHT FOR IT, GO AND GRAB THE CHANCES that is out there because every single moment we cherished we missed out will eventually turn into memories that might last forever. Even so like what Teddy Geiger sang in his hitz "For you i will" You always want what you can't have, but i've got to try". TRY is the key word in life, life is about are you a risk taker? Are u willing to give it a TRY? The answer lies beneath of yourself not others. *Take a good deep breath* and a clear thought of what is life all about.. meaningful? routined?senseless?stressed? and whatsoever it is.. Life is short.. so play hard.. PLAY HARD ppl.. cherish the people surrounds you.. once they're gone and dissapeared from your life.. you will start to regret for not taking up the chances to show your appreciation towards them.. That's why.. Friends and family are the main priority in my life as they are the spices of my life.. =) loving each and every of you completely..

xMwacks Mwacksx