What have i been up to?

Have gone through long hiatus. Hardly have time to blog lately.

Life has been pretty much occupied with work, family and personal matters.

But again thank God it's all almost considered well now.

As some of you have already know that my daddy was hospitalized and went through heart bypass surgery last month to clear off the blockages in his heart. Yes it has been an overall tiring and very emotional experiences for all of us in the family including myself. I will never forget how i reacted when i received a phone call from my sister on one afternoon during lunch time.

I drove to the nearest petrol station to return her missed call and trying to control myself from crying like a big baby. Tears filled my not so big pair of eyes. I got dumbfounded.. stuck staring out from my car window blankly.. outta words and i don't know how to react, i just want to cry badly. Sis told me that dad had minor heart attack and he was hospitalized. Didn't have much details cause sis had incoming call on the other line. She ended the conversation with "I will fly back with mom tonight" will update you again. The info on dad's situation is very vague, I wish to know more but i do not one to bug anyone at that point of time but just telling myself i have to be patience and hoping that it is just false alarm.

Night time i met up with my bro and sister for dinner and apparently they informed me that Dad has been admitted into ICU and requires surgery. ICU + Surgery is never a good thing to know or hear about. I got lost again and that is also the night when i dropped my blackberry at One Utama. Couldn't recall where did i put my phone and all, back tracked my steps hoping that i really can locate my phone miraculously but i couldn't find it at all. That's phone comes with alot of sentimental value and purchased with my hard earned cash. But thank god i have my stuff back-up because i was ready to migrate to an android phone that Faizal gave me end of last year. But i still feel heartache for the lost.

That's me when shit happens.it will be like a series of unfortunate events consecutively and every damn bad things happen at the same time.. On that night itself we all plan for our trip back to KB all of us applied 3 days. 8 hour ride back to KB in Ping's car.. and that's when all the tiring days began.. Daddy has been very famously known as the iron man.. Tough, fit & so on so for him to get diagnosed with heart attack is something nobody will believe or expect including himself.. He couldn't accept the fact that he will get heart attack and that is when he start making things hard for us when we all take turns to look after him in the hospital.. He was being pessimistic the entire time and to one point we all lost of words and don't know what else can we say to him or even tell him to cheer him up.

4 days in the hospital with him and he was asked to get second opinion and he came down to a week after he got discharged.. went for anjiogram and everyone's nightmare came through. He has to go for bypass surgery which we were all hoping he don't need to. Before the surgery, we all went to the hospital to accompany him before his 8 hours surgery. He was happy to see all of us, reminding us that we should stay together and always meet up and send him the billl.. He knows it well that we won't ask money from him even if we are damn broke.. that's how it has been since we were young. Can see the stressful expression on each of us but we were all try to stay as positive as ever.. The nurses came over to push him into the operation theater.. before the door close.. we all said "Pa.. see u later" everyone in the operation theater smiled and he told them.. "my children"..

We were all very very nervous.. trying not to think so much.. 6 hours plus gone.. received a call to inform us that daddy is out from the operation theater and he is already in the ICU.. the surgery went well without complications.. so we went to the hospital in Sunway to visit him.. i keep reminding myself not to cry when i see my dad.. Nowadays i cried very easily.. even when I am happy.. weird.. so it's like watching the movie.. daddy with tubes all over him.. breathing with the supporting machine and whats not.. to be frank it was quite heartbreaking to see him in such situation..

The next day when i went over to visit him.. Ben dropped by.. it was really sweet of him... To one point i start to realize that when you grow older.. it doesn't really matter how many friends you have.. what matters most is how many of them are the truthful one.. Very obvious.. Dad was breathing on his own already and he opened his eyes.. i was happy and i feel like crying again..and as days goes by.. he recovered very fast and we are all glad..

Till now daddy still couldn't accept the fact but we all know he needs time.. He has to watch over what he eat and things like that.. From not a vege lover.. he has to take vege now.. well it's all good now.. I can start doing my own things now.. With a quick blink of an eye.. it's already June.. What has 2012 gotten for me?? no dramas.. which is good enough.. I ended one chapter of my life that i do not wish to open back the chapter.. So far it is the best decision and action ever.. It's all good